Chapter 6: I Shouldn't be here
- Jun 5, 2012 12:04 AM
What am I doing still up!? Self! You have to get up early from now onw not to waste day light! I have to get this done with! 160 pages of manga need to be ready to print by the 10 so help me! That is the deadline I'm sticking to. But for now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I been slacking today a lot. Sigh......Dosen't help I been having a lot ...AND I MEAN A LOT of self doubt lately. I would like to think I have gotten better at making stories. but everyone I have done I feel like it's so flat. Also.......I seem to want to run away if anyone ask me what the plot is of my main pet porject that I sell. I get so embarssed that I forget or make up something... x___x Ugh! I know it's not marketable and if it is the aimed ppl are tween girls that are into anime and fantasy. It's just something for me mainly. But I'm selling it my manga....I don't feel it's up for selling or to be even considered by anyone to be anything. It's just somethign I want to do.
But I DO want to make something everyone will like. Not just me. Yet, I'd like it to be fun and intresting to draw too. uhg..... I feel like such a dork right now. I know my skills are lacking compared to others, and I know my "stlye" of drawing is not foreveryone.....Sigh....I just hope I can make something to at least show off everything I got...Everything I know I got not just the bits that I keep throwing at a piece of paper to get a story done with. Aaawww man... Now I forgot what I was going to say too! Uuuuhhhh!!! So fustrating! I think this calls for me going to bed and getting up early to at least get one more page done with before I go out to pick up so me strings to fix up bows to sell at Anime Expo. Got to make money if I don't sell my mangas some how you know. :/